17:32 - 2004-11-02
*sigh*....
I just feel empty now.
No...I really dunno if I'm gonna unlock this thing just yet.
When my pathetic-o-meters gets back into the safe-zone, maybe.
*sigh*
I hate to seem so impaired...Maybe if the world would give me a moment to get it together, I could stop looking and feeling so utterly pathetic and disappointing. Though, how I would go about getting it together, I have no idea, just as I have no idea what exactly "it" would be...
No wonder adults kick dirt over every remnant from this time in their lives. No wonder they distance themselves from it so thoroughly. Or...at least they seem to. I'd deny that it ever happened to me to, if I could, but then, after listening to the rest of them do it...I think I'd be even more ashamed of myself then than I am now, if that's at all possible.
Whatever. Maybe if I just shut up I'll quit sounding pathetic and retarded.
Ugh...
here's hoping one day I can look back on this and laugh.
