21:01 - 2004-11-30
Noize...
Now testing how much grating noise human ears can take....
Dee and Lil Doodoo are practicing for the violin chair-test tomorrow. Unbeknownst to most people, "practice" is the newest slang word that refers to "bringing forth a cacaphony". Dee is using my keyboard's violin setting, while Lil' Doodoo's weapon of choice is Basil (her concert violin). Between the two of them though...the racket is unbearable, seeing as how their instruments are never on the same note and how the violin has a nasty way of going sharp (which is most of why they were practicing in the first place). But it's all perfectly fine. My ears will heal. And when my chance arrives: I will be sure to play lots of ShakkaZombie for their pures enjoyment.
Yup. Nothing vengeful about that, right? I'm just...expressing myself :3
Speaking of which, I sat here for quite a while banging on the moue index button clicking over and over on "Add An Entry" because that blasted server-busy thing came up so many times...Stay tuned for the exciting conclusion on whether or not I got through ^_~
As is customary for my people, I have been observing as much human behavior as possible: the innovation, the political set-up, all the selfishness and faultiness I'm sure I'm mentioned in earlier logs. We all have our opinions on humans, personally, I think mine is pretty slack: You're all people too, from what I can see... But you'd be surprised at the harshness some of my superiors exhibit toward this little blue and white sphere you call home. But anyway, recently, as I have observed my acquaintences and others who aren't within my immediate family, I have noticed a running theme--negativity. Laughter seems superficial among the people I meet; bitter, forced, cynical. And that's if there is any laughter to be found...In my closest friends I observe a lot of hostile discussions centered on disagreeable personal experiences, peppered with swear-words. Granted, every issue is poignant in its own way, I understand...But the people seem so unhappy. Others, who are more optamistic I suppose seem forlorn, lonely and nostalgic...
At heart tho, I am beginning to become aware, truly of my own limitations...I suppose this is good for reason. And I wonder if everyone begins to understand things this way...I suppose I always did. I just got arrogant about it...somehow. It's so much easier the normal, shameless way. Fewer misunderstandings. Also, I wonder if I ignore certain kinds of contrast now. Ask yourself this confusing question: If one begins to condone what is wrong, do they lose some appreciation for what is exceptionally good? I haven't quite discovered the answer, myself...But then, I am always looking, so I'm sure I'll figure it out. It may seem irrelevant, I suppose, but I find that in the negative world, it much to our favor to keep an eye out for the wonderfully good. I, personally, have seen "it" and, if you are interested, can easily show you where "it" can be found. The exceptionally good exists, you can trust me on that *winks at a certain someone*.
In the mean time, I have also just run across a whole slew o really strange and random anime pictures. One of them will be your Christmas image this year, I'm pretty sure, unless I change my mind. I have quite a few good Christmas choices, for once. So, if nothing else, look forward to that. Life really is worth it, staying alive, enduring it, keeping your chins up. It really is. Ta for now!
